So hey, I’m an epileptic who’s had their seizures under control with 150 mg of Lamotrigine and 300 of aptiom. While I don’t have seizures often, I still get auras that will come and go, mostly when I’m asleep or trying to go to bed. I haven’t been able to find anyone else with the same aura I’ve had though, so has anyone ever had this same feeling:
It’s hard to describe, since it’ll usually subside after sleep, but the best way to describe it is that it first starts with “mental overload” like a computer trying to boot up 5 different programs at once. All of those thoughts get kind of mixed together to form a word salad in the brain. It’s a really unpleasant feeling that further gets compounded by the next feeling. It’s like those old, cd rom programs that would freeze and repeat the same sound over and over again before the “not responding” message popped up.
Shortly after that, it’s like if whoever is operating the computer keeps hitting “Ctrl+Z” to try and restart the process in hopes that it’ll all run smoothly next time. Your thoughts get rewound and you experience the same or similar feelings over and over again until you snap out. It even carries over into dreams sometimes, where the feeling becomes more vivid, but for some reason, if I sleep on it, I’ll usually feel totally better in the morning as if the programs worked themselves out and are running smoothly.
So yeah, has anyone else had a similar experience? It’s hard to put it in the words, but this is the best analogy that I can come up for it. It hasn’t seemed to have resulted in a seizure, but this aura is highly intrusive, making me take a second at work to just breathe and “fight” the feelings. Doing such only puts it off and it builds until I get the chance to actually rest and wipe it from my brain.