I am a 42-year-old female. I experienced my first grand-mal seizure 12 years ago. For several years previous to that, I had experienced what I referred to as "skipped record syndrome", where I would have auras and difficulties with words or speech, sometimes also combined with a jerking motion of my hands. Over the last 12 years, I have had occasional seizures...sometimes going as long as a year without any episodes, and during other times having as many as 6 seizures in a month. Last week I had my first seizure in more than a year. Following a seizure, I have occasionally experienced a feeling of an altered sense of self. Not just a change in my mood, but almost a sense of having travelled back in time to a previous "me" time. I am not sure how to explain it, to be honest. I often think we have a self-perception that changes with us, over time. Sort of like our "self" at different stages...the childhood feeling, the teenager feeling, the young adult feeling, the parent feeling, the middle-aged feeling. Since my most recent seizure, I am feeling stuck in one of these previous senses of self. I just wondered if anyone else has experienced this or something similar? And what if anything do you do to deal with this. I don't want to say that I feel depressed...that is not necessarily so. I just don't feel "normal" or like myself. And of course with that comes the feeling of not being in control of my "self".
Please, anyone having experienced something similar, any input would be greatly appreciated! I suppose just not thinking I am alone would be a comfort in-and-of itself. Thanks in advance!!