Considering lesion removal surgery

I am now to the foundation and it looks there is a wealth of information here. I am being faced with surgery to remove two lesions in my brain. I met with my neurologist yesterday. She said we have an appointment next Tuesday with the surgical team. I was fine while talking with her but when I left I panicked! She has mentioned this several times and she has done a lot of tests leading up to this. I've been hearing her, but yesterday it became very real. I am 50 yrs old. I've taken several meds over the years. They. Work for awhile then they give out after about 4 - 5 years. I have had a vns 9 yrs now. It has helped greatly. I still have 3 - 5 seizures a month. My seizures change styles over time they are temporal lobe, complex partial at this point. If I go through with the surgery they will remove 1 damaged area from each side of my brain. Until now I haven't thought much about what the actual surgical process would be like...not facing reality I guess. I would appreciate information from anyone who has been through this type of surgery. My dr is also considering an rns implant. I have reservations there as well. If anyone has been through similar situations, please share your story with me. So Scared