Coping with seizures and a family

Hi my name is Jennifer Johnson and I am 39 years old with 4 children, 1 bio son of my own and 3 stepchildren, my husband and I have been married 9 years. I started having seizures 17 years ago 3 weeks after the birth of my son Brian. Let me explain why my first husband and I were married only a year when I got pregnant, and when I was 7 months pregnant he left me, why because in his words he wasn't father material. I lost everything when he left and had to move back in with my parents, during that time things were really hard on me, my marriage was ending, and I was about to have a baby. The day of my son's birth my mother took me to the hospital 3 times, and they checked me and sent me back home twice, our 3 trip I couldn't sit down in the car, I had to kneel down and hold on to the seat, because the pains were so bad. I don't remember my sons birth because I went into preclampsia, and had to have an emergency cesarean, something I still don't understand because I had gone to the hospital twice earlyer that day. When my son was 3 weeks old I had my first seizure, I am thankful that I was living and I am thankful that they were there for me. I would later find out that my blood pressure went up to high, and damaged a nerve on my brian, causing the seizures. I underwent brian surgery in aug. of 1999 at Roper Hospital in Chalreston SC. Although I don't have them as often as I did before, they haven't complete gone away and although the operations did so them done, I am still researching informations that may give me hope, of returning to a normal life and joining the working world again.