my Left temporal lobe experience-be ware

I haven't been back since my surgery in January/Feb. I have a hard time reading all of these happy stories about surgery success because mine wasn't that way. When they did my grid mapping, they found my speech was overlapping my memory and they couldn't remove the area of my hippocampus in order to make me seizure free. I was very and still am very depressed and angry because I went that far for nothing. Plus, I ended up with a blood clot in my leg from the hip to my ankle and it is still 50 to 80% blocked and I have to wear compression hose in 80-90 degree weather. I can't exercise because of it. They had to put a filter in my vena cava to prevent clot from breaking and moving into my lungs and giving me a pulmanary embolism and I have to have that surgically rotated every 4 weeks to keep it from being permanent. Well after the 3rd time, it had clot on it and they couldn't move it. I found a breast lump in march that they are keeping an eye on. I go back in Sept. to have it checked. Someone please encourage me!! I have faith but dang...I sure am being tested! Honestly right now I don't know how much more I can take.