I had brain surgery

HI, I used to be long to this group but I had to leave becasue I got really sick that i got really nasty with people and I just had to go. Well the problem was an huge increase in seizurez activity, that we were not aware of at teh time. I was doing weird things, adn had some bizarre behavior that we hd to get looked into. I went back to my neurologist adn he ran tests and yes my seizures were inceased adn by the way I have complex PArtials with secondary generalization. They decided that I was a good cadiadate for a VNS and so I was put on teh list for one adn then had it put in and for a month it workd but after that my seizures were out of cpntrol adn they decided to put me back in the EMU for a seocnd time and caught 3 staring seizrues and 3 major seizures, adn decdied 7 weeks later that they had to brain surgery adn I had no say in it I had no choice in the matter, It was going to be done. So I had it done they did a Left Temporal Lobectomy on me and I lost 2.5 inches of my left temporal lobe. And it was not a complete success becaseu they couldn;t get the aread that was near the speech center, and they got the other 2 foci, ythough. My speling is a result of the surgyry right now. IT is hard to deal with my own 16 week recovery when . it is hard. let me tell you. I have the Clash having a concert on my head and it hurts. I take 3600 mgs of Neurontin (max for epilepsy), 400 mgs of Lamictal, 200 mgs of TOpamax, and 2 mgs of Klonopin. And Ativan if needed to stop seizrues. They wills tart to reduce the drugs onteh 16th at my appointmeny but I will alwasy have totake meds and will always have seizures and will always be epileptic. IT stinks. Nancy